Friday, May 16, 2014

Love. (n) (verb)

There are a lot of people around the world. Almost all needs love. Some find it with their loved ones. Some with their family. Some with their pets. Some with their works. Others are still finding it, others are into the edge of it, others are still waiting for it, while others just don't care at all.

Love is a complicated word to be defined. It is something you can't just define. It's a feeling. A feeling that needs to be expressed. But for some, how do we express a love that was formed because of friendship? Are you willing to take the risk of your friendship or will you just stay there at that safe zone, at that friendzone?

I've been blogging a lot about love since I made this account. And as I read my past entries, I realized how I moved on. I was once been madly in love with someone. Madly in love that I cried all night after we broke up. That it took me almost three years to move on. It was, in all honesty, the most meaningful and longest (so far) relationship I had. It wasn't just another teen love story affair. For me, it was real love. Funny that I can blog about it feeling nothing now unlike before, I used to cry.

I loved this person so real that I learnt to value him more than myself (which is WRONG). He was my everything back then. He loved me too but cliche as this may seem, love was just not enough for us. We broke up. I dont know when, what, why or why. I just knew that we aren't together anymore. That's the worst kind of break up (I think).

I was hurt because after that feeling of break up, he had another girl. Was I that easy to be replaced? Was our relationship that easy to forget? Am I not worth it anymore? I kept on asking myself that question. Repeating inside my head that makes me cry all over again. I used to love him but learned to hate him and now I learned to forgive him. Great to my part, forgiving isn't hard as long as you've learned to realize things :)

Now, I realized that to love someone means trusting them, understanding them, giving them time for their selves, caring for them and knowing what are the right words to say and when is the right time to say it. Loving someone is NOT giving your all but sharing it. ALWAYS ALWAYS leave something for yourself.

And just a piece of wisdom, "You can never truly love someone until you learn to love your self." :) Have a nice day!

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