my Star .

He's like a star in the sky every night .. Twinkles so beautiful , so bright .. and I am just here standing , staring and wishing that someday, that star will fall into my hands and by that time , I could be the happiest person in the world <3

I admit, my heart have been broken .. I love him with all my heart and soul, I show him how much I love him .. I do everything that can make him feel special .. But he chose to break my heart, he loved another girl just because I'm away from him .. Like, he can't stand the feeling of missing someone whom he used to be with everyday, every time .. It took me almost 3 months to move on, and to be honest, until now, I still feel a little love to him ..

Now, I don't know if I'm really in love .. I have a crush , a classmate of mine in a particular subject .. He's been my crush since the first day I saw him .. I don't believe in love at first sight, but now, I think that belief looses it's power ..

He has a wonderful eyes that every time I look at him , makes my heart skip a beat .. His lips, oh his lips, it's perfect that every girl can appreciate it .. His face is just simple yet really attractive .. When he smiles, it could light up my whole body and give me butterflies in my stomach .. Every passing day, my feelings for him grow more .. He's not the type of guy that is serious .. He always tell a funny phrase and his mouth never stops from talking .. He's tall and slender , but I like it <3

Those things worry me . Yes, Am I already in love with him ? How can it be ? What does he have that makes me fall completely ? I don't know the answer .. All I know is that, If I do, I'm afraid I'll break my heart again .. Not because of loosing a boyfriend, but because of too much affection that I know he can NEVER give me back .. In fact, he has a girlfriend . I don't want to grab the opportunity that they're away from each other because, I have already experienced that .. I have to RESPECT his girlfriend even though I don't know her personally because I don't want to hurt and cause pain to her due to jealousy ..

I am afraid that this feeling will stay even longer .. I'm trying to control or even stop it BUT every time I try, I always fail .. He still got my whole attention .. And he's the reason why I always smile though there's nothing funny ..